Pulled Me Up!

​O Father! I remember still the days I touched my heart and there was only an empty void. It was so empty. So dark. It also felt like it sucked all the light left in me away. I would collapse on the ground and cry from heartache. When I believed that in my own knowledge that I can fill such void with the things I believed was sufficient. I cry out to You O one who binds the broken hearted! Father! I’m drowning! I cry out to You! The waves are so high and the thunder so loud and the lightning striking in places I do not even know! How frightened I was. How damaged I was. How sinful I was! Oh truly it was such a difficult journey. Imagine not being able to breathe deeply for a year! The aching pain no aspirin can heal or drug can weaken. How frail human love can be. For a human’s love can only be strengthened when bind with the love of Jesus. But that I never knew! How long I have suffered and how dark my sleep was. My dreams haunt me and my very breath took my energy away. Food tasted like dust and my voice which once sung would be broken in whispers and chokes. I implore you O Children of God! May I never ever go back to such a dark place. For I am a sinner and I crawled through the darkness and the boiling rivers of fiery sin to grasp the edge of the cliff of Heaven. Oh for where God is then Heaven is also! But my strength failed me and I could hold on no longer and as my grip was slipping on those rocky edges I called out for Jesus and strong arms wrapped around me and a strong hand grasped my frail one and He pulled me up!